My baby girl

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I miss my baby girl so much I still can't believe she is gone it still seems like some sick dream. I am so depressed I wish I could stop crying. I was reading a story and it was really good and it got a little sad intense on one part and I was getting a little choked up and I started bawling hysterically. Seriously I was bawling hysterically because of an Adam/Tommy story. I just want to feel like my old self but I can't it hurts to bad. sometimes I will make myself not even think about her because it hurts to bad but then it makes it worse when it all comes flooding back. She loved green and she loved Monkeys and if you told her to watch herself young lady she would say I not a lady I Lillyana, and I miss her I miss her so so much. I miss her little face I miss her little voice and her belly laugh and how she knew all the blue clues songs. I miss playing hide and go seek and I miss the way she loved to dance. I just miss everything so freaking much I just don't know how to keep going forward in a world where my bug doesn't live anymore